The hubby quit his job. I haven't had a free moment to write. I should be soon, cuz he's getting a job...AND he's probably going out tonight. I promise to write at least a couple times a week. DON'T LEAVE ME!!!

Sometimes thoughts are dangerous things.

I'm reading the "The Biggest Loser" book. It all makes so much sense. Be healthy. Exercise a lot. Eat enough...but less then most Americans.

Then...I look at my daily calories. My calories for today? 782. 782. FUCKING 782.. My dangerous thoughts are playing with me. "You didn't workout today. Didn't workout today. You want to be beautiful at work tomorrow. You've hit a weightloss plateau...is it still too late to workout?" Today I'll sit on these calories. I pray I'll do better tomorrow. I want to do better. I want to be better. I will be beautiful, though.

Find me on MySpace and be my friend!

I guess it'll always be there. I wish I was in therapy sometimes. I really do. I would love to know if the right thing is to push the ED thoughts way back in the back of my brain where they just tickle other thoughts...or am I supposed to take them out and confront them? Try to figure them out? Make my breakfast and ignore them?

Fake it 'til you make it has been what I'm doing so far. I think of myself as a healthy person. I think of myself as "oh so into fitness" and I am. I know that you are what you believe you are. I'm losing 2-3 lbs a week. It's slow going, I know, but I feel so STRONG. Stronger then I have in YEARS... Besides pregnancy I guess lol.

I can't belive I'm starting a real anxiety attack over BREAKFAST. Maybe because I thought about taking the day off exercise.

Stop it Nina, it's just a protein shake and oatmeal. *SIGH*

I want to look like...following the lead of my SIL

Promised I would credit :)

dancing_emma not dancer, sorry!

I've got a terrific sister-in-law who I am very close to. She's frustrated right now with her weightloss. She's at dancer_emma and I re-opened my fitday for her

http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/PublicJournals.html?Owner=Fitness%5FNina

It is public, so I decided to post it here so anyone can check it out :)

Also drop my SIL a line if ya want :)